My oh so poetic poetry

Glinting shards of moments past

 Like the distant effervescence

 Of a long dead star

 The light of what has happened

 The reality

 Slips into your faint awareness

 Once calamity is ancient history

 Instant realization

 Slamming into you like concrete

 Only to slither down

 Into a new found weakness

 As you realize it's all over

 Yet happening always and again

 Millions of light years away

 Beyond sight and time

 Only to be witnessed

 By those left behind

 Those barely on the shores

 Of this now world's time

 Swaying slowly in the ripples

 That send them our way

 Drifting closer

 Barely in the shadow

 Of our imagination

 Shivering doubtlessly into being

 To one day

 Look upon this calamity

 As ancient history

 And newly find

 A timestamped weakness

 As freshly poured concrete

 And as difficult to shift

 All things in their own time

 Except the things we immortalize

 Thinking we know now

 What a rearranged world

 We no longer recognize

 Will need then

 All elements remain

 Oxygen will lend itself to hydrogen

 Countless times

 Through you and me

Never assuming it belonged to either.

 Simply being.

 Free your elemental mind.

 Allow all things to pass in time.

When you feel the world is less than it should be smile and open your arms at the opportunity you have to make it a better place. Be your own sunshine! Maybe you will even brighten someone else's day.

I have some thoughts I would like to share, but before I begin I would ask that if you do not feel as I do if you are satisfied with the state of the world and truly believe we are living out the best life humanly possible and that we are truly leaving behind a world our children can be proud of living in then please stop here. If you are truly that blind deaf and dumb you will just feel insulted by what follows.

I want to talk about education and information. I know these can be big scary words. Perhaps they are words you think you know. Information has to do with knowledge. Education is about developing the skills to be able to interpret and apply information appropriately. It may be easier to stay uninformed if your education has been lacking. By this I mean that if you don't know what you're looking at or what it's for then you certainly won't be able to do much with it. But that isn't enough and it isn't ok. Look around you at the people you see everyday. Are they happy? are you happy? How many people in the world go hungry? how many people in your community are not striving? then consider that these are only the ones about whom you have received this information. Information is not all-encompassing. It is not objective and it is rarely accurate. That is where education comes in. Education is what allows you to consider the things you don't know as you act on the things you do.

Some things we do know. Some information is readily available and easy to apply math is a brilliant example: 1+1=2 and 1,000,000 / 2 = 500,000. These are simple equations understood the world over.

So how can people who make millions in one single year complain that if they were taxed at 50% that they would be bankrupt. I understand they are accustomed to living a certain "high life" I understand that they operate businesses that consume millions of dollars of investment but what they take home as a paycheck is pure profit. I am not ignorant of how finances work. I also am not ignorant of how ego works. Enough is NOT enough for these people exponential growth is what they are looking for. It is not enough any longer to simply live. To feed yourself, clothes yourself, house yourself and do so for your family and loved ones. These people are hoarding money they earn by overproducing. By overextending the worlds capacity to produce natural resources. They are destroying the world. So what if they had a little less to invest? what if they couldn't overproduce? what if they only took what they needed? maybe we wouldn't be facing such abhorrent damage to the planet. Maybe another family could have the space to grow, also have a house and clothes and food. I'm not saying give to the poor. Give to the collective. you want a better quality of life? you want efficient government? THEN PAY FOR IT! You are the ones placing the cost of your overproduction onto those who do NOT have the means to pay for it. Educate yourselves! understand the full impact not just the financial impact of your actions! Taxes help make you feel safe, they pay for your armies, your policemen, your roads, your children's education. Why is this not a good enough reason to want to help? Shame to those who believe that bankruptcy is what awaits the rich if they are suddenly slightly less so. There was a time when the rich were taxed more than the poor. they could be proud to say that their success had led to the betterment of society. What happened? EGO, GREED. SELF INDULGENCE.


People are waking up. They know this cannot last. The world is a community, one that is currently a sinking ship. I will let you in on a little secret : this isn't the titanic, there are NO life boats even if you are in first class. When the world goes down you're coming too. So put your back into it and lend a hand. If your hand is stronger don't blame other for being weak. This is your responsibility to your fellow HUMAN BEINGS. We are all responsible for all of our actions not just the few we choose to brag about. Every waking moment is a choice for action or inaction. STOP waiting STOP hating. There is no blame. There is no past. Only where we are now and what we can do about it. To everyone I say : BE PREPARED TO LEND A HAND. IT IS AN HONOR TO SHOW THAT YOU LOVE YOUR WORLD AND YOUR DUTY TO TRY EVERYTHING TO SAVE IT FOR ALL.


Comments are appreciated but if you read through all of this just to tell me that I don't know what I'm talking about please review the first paragraph and don't waste your precious time nor mine.

Hey, so I really want to know what the hell is wrong with me. I've just recently started seeing someone. things are good. GREAT even. So why??? am I feeling panicky? WHY is it that I panic when things are good? when things are going wrong i'm fine no problem bring it on! but when I meet a very sweet, cuddly, communicative guy, who really likes me and wants to take me out, doesn't mind when I complain about petty things, thinks i'm funny and calls me beautiful. Why do I start to panic? WTF?

Holy exploding bottles of fermented juice BATMAN!! ... all over my car. Ewwwwwww.

 

 

Its smells like real nasty fruity beer.
 

Obtuse is the new black.

I left
I told you it was over
we were done
no more excuses, no more lies
no more to those promises
that left me empty inside
and still you try
Friends isn't good enough for you
you yourself admit I deserve better
so will you let me find better?
NO!
suddenly you think better
is something you can be
three years of pleading
waiting, needing
empty words
you knew I was hurt
just couldn't be bothered
not worth the effort
and now moments after
broken
NOW! you are willing to fight
Now you fight alone against
years of loneliness, worthlessness
anger, resentment
but mostly fear
of what i might have let you do to me
if I gave you another year

I am reluctant
about many things... to begin i am feeling rather lonely of late. i guess after being
with someone nearly 24/7 for over three years not having anyone there is something to adjust
to and adjusment i felt I was handling rather well, I mean we've been apart for over 3 months
and it wasnt until my ex showed up unexpectedly at my house this morning ( on his way to his
mothers) that I even really took notice that perhaps for the last week or so I've been lonely

It isn't that i miss him, I don't oddly enough, I just miss having someone there I can confide
in, someone to wrap their arms around me. trouble is I am somewhat of a recluse, I like my own spacei tend to flit back and forth between thoughts and emotions in such a way that most have a hard time following. I dont necessarily want someone to follow but I guess it is only human to want someone there to share with.  I need someone willing to be there for me but willing to let me go on any all avenues my path takes me even if its not at their immediate side ( something my ex could never handle and something i had to curb constantly to accomodate him.) I need the freedom to express myself and oh boy do I do that! lol very little could stop that! But i am RELUCTANT!

I am one who does NOT trust easily, If i even smell the hint of a lie I walk away. I do not trust easily and am wary of those i meet. which I guess tends to turn people away in itself. my waryness is often read as disinterest when really I am simply RELUCTANT to give any more than I am getting from the person I am mentally dissecting in front of me. I seem to have this ingrained fear that anything I say will be used against me anything I do will come back to bite me in the ass, maybe that is because it is a practice my family tends to employ usually in a joking manner but I learned rather quickly to be sure never to arm a potential adversary and i guess that is how I see most people a threat to be sidestepped.

It is kind of sad I guess but one that has prevented a lot ofhurt and also no doubt a lot of living and a lot of opportunities I could have had and joy I could have shared. Somehow though even knowing all I am losing throw my RELUCTANCE I have a hard time learning to trust and put my shields aside. SO curretly i feel my reluctance is hindering
possibly two most important avenues in my life, that of finding a partner to share myself with
and that of finding a job. so I will endeavor to try and be less RELUCTANT and more open
hopefully this wont come back to bite me... although even as I say that I know that it will
but I guess a little bite, a little hurt, is better in the end than staying in my little box
and watching as my friends live... here I go
Ak

Letter to your soul

I know you dear friend,
as ever I have and always I will.
Through the turning of the wheel,
the ebb and the flow, we come and go
leaving sparks and light and threads
that lead ever backward while blazing forth.
Your eyes speak the things you cannot yet verbalize
but I know the sorrow we share
for those who will not follow
and the joy we feel as our turning point draws near.
The river goes ever onward carrying us forth,
swimming with the flow,
eager to bask in the ocean just ahead.
The pain of the wait,
The weight of our work is nothing to the glory we build.
The sweet glimpses of melodies yet to be composed.
The heights to be surpassed.
The crystal pillars are growing from compassion.
The anticipation we feel,
bursting our seams breaking our molds in the knowing.
The purpose guiding our steps one by one and all together.
The path is winding.
The way not always clear but the destination without doubt.
Just a matter of moments,
beats of the heart to go.
The web is real.
The strands meet as we surely will in this life and every next
forever with the source

AK

Itsy bitsy
Teenie weenie
THESE won't Fit
Into THAT binkini

Victoria told me they were not real...her and her secrets what does she know? Apparently how to even make large breasted women feel inadequate. I think I would remember someone putting water balloons in my chest....